- Blargh
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starinthegutter
- April 12th, 2009
So breaking from WoW has been fun and not so fun at the same time. I got my final paid commission out of the way so now I can just finish up a few friends' pictures that I promised and I'm "back on track" so to speak. It'll be nice when I don't owe people things. I hate doing commissions because I am left drawing stuff I really don't feel like drawing (no offense to my commissioners), it's more of an inspiration thing, again. I like drawing what I want to draw when I want to draw. I think that's true of many artists actually. No artist likes being forced to draw shit, but that's the crappy thing when you bind yourself to a commission. You need to draw it because you were paid for it. You received the money, so there's no reason to put it off for so long (like I did. How long did I put Kailani on hold for.. like... 7 years or some crazy shit? Holy crap.)
Aaaaanyway... the not so fun part is, obviously, I miss my friends in game. They provide a huge support to me whether they realize it or not. WoW lifts a huge weight off my shoulders and actually relieves stress more than it causes it, or so I am realizing. BUT, I do need to prove to myself a little that WoW does not control my entire life and that I need to get out more and smell the flowers, take in the sunshine, all that fluffy crap.
One thing WoW has done wonders for me in the art world is that, I don't give as much of a flying fuck about the art scene as I used to, ie., I don't get all fucking butthurt if I don't get massive page hits or favorites or BAWWW if someone hasn't commented on my art. That was one thing I left DA and pretty much the entire art community behind for. I was watching Devtards get so fucking obsessed with favorites. Like, before DeviantArt was even online, there were no fucking favorites buttons. Sure, you got the odd email and comment, but then DeviantArt opened up the whole Favorites option, and it was all downhill from there. Favorites were now the be-all, end-all of an artist's existence on the internet. If your shit wasn't favorited like at least 50 time by the time you uploaded it, it was garbage. Which myself and the few sane people realized was bullshit.
I am happy to say that, before when I was so deep into the whole Art community, Deviantart and all that crap, I would have said I am leaving it for good, and then come back a week or two later. Now? I can leave whenever the hell I want and be satisfied with my life. I don't need that site any more to make me who I am as an artist. No, that doesn't necessarily mean I am going to start a website or join another art website, but I certainly do not hold DA as a means to convey who I am as an artist further from uploading the image and allowing others to view it.
I am still wondering how long I ought to break from WoW for. Please, before you go on saying that's all you hear me talk about, WoW, to me, is a social gathering between me and my friends. I have fun with them, and I laugh with them. The raiding and leveling characters is an aside to how social this game can be and how many amazing individuals I have met on it. I have also met many of my guildmates in real life at Blizzcon last year, and that was an amazing experience. The game is something, I have decided, I will continue to do, in moderation of course.
The MacBook's running outta battery life, and I am tired. I will more than likely gorge on leftover pizza tomorrow, watch movies, and art for a while.